day 1 without stephanie

it's a terrible feeling, i hate it, i really hate this feeling.
i love you a lot.
and i miss you so much.
i miss everything about you.
your smile,
your voice,
your giggles.
but i can't forgive you.
i want to, but i can't bring myself to.
i've been selfish, and i don't want to be hurt by you again.
but i want you.
so badly.